haiz....jus wake up...still feelin tired frm playing bball ytd nite.....later still gt lesson frm 12-6pm...sianz....hate it...den 2molo still gt pract test 4 one of my hated modules....cham liao la...sure fail de....haiz.....2 more daes 2 wrk liao...sianz......not looking 4ward 2 wrk after wad haf happened over e last mth as well as nw.....haiz........my heart is no longer dere le....nw staying dere mainly becos of money...jus whu am i 2 u nw,e someone whom u dislike,ur fren or a stranger??...i reali wan e ans....haiz.....my mood is gettin worst as daes passed...haiz.... =( 9:03 AM

haiz....jus reach hme from after going back 2 hougang point ntuc 2 help my mother buy things....n at e same tym..try 2 change shift 2 morning de shift 4 e next two wks if possible...but sad 2 sae,my supervisor wont allow mi 2 change shift....FCUK LA!!!.....go 2 hell!!!....is tis wad i gt after going back 2 wrk 4 e last 2 wks when u wan mi to due 2 e shortage of pple.....4 e past 2 wks...i've been neglecting my studies as well as e quiz etc.....haiz.....mayb my tym over dere is up..if tis sat i go wrk n she still wont allow mi 2 change...mayb it's tym 2 sae goodbye...even if i still carry on wrking if i dun quit,my heart wont b dere liao.....i'm tired...reali tired....i've done all i could liao....live life wif no regrets....haiz...... 2:31 PM

veri tired nw....having headache...die liao la...2dae start wrk at 6.30am n end at 9.30am...den after dat go sch frm 12-3pm b4 going back 2 wrk again from 3-10pm......sianz.......i've reach my limits le....my mood still not back yet....sianz....nth matters 2 mi anymore le...living life dae by dae....moment by moment.....treasuring all my friends nw.....moving out of my past... 10:28 PM

haiz....jus wake up n getting ready 2 wrk t 6.30am le....tired,.....damn tired....ytd wrk from 9am-10pm is veri torturing.......den still nid wrk soon.....after wrk still nid go sch 4 lesson at 12pm...tink i'm breaking dwn soon le bahx....haiz.........i'm praying 4 u 2 b in gd mood n free frm all those sickness etc..... 5:46 AM

haiz....jus wake up after slping 2hrs jus nw...cos ytd nite meet shiou n jack 4 cycling den we stay until ard 4am e nxt dae b4 i reach hme at ard 4.10am....den onli managed 2 slp at ard 5am....tired.....later still nid wrk from 9am-10pm.....sianz.....my mood sucks....i'm tired physically n i'll b depending on my mental power 2 pull mi thru it le.....haiz.......jus went n c her blog...if u wan quit...den quit lorx....dun force urself 2 carry on le....i'll support whatever decision dat u make....though i admit wo shi hen she bu de ni...haiz....i tink i'm also quitting it soon le...jus waitin 4 e tym 2 come.....haiz.... 7:28 AM

finalli gt tym 2 update le...jus reach hme from wrk not too long ago... haha....i've been wrking n studying 4 e past few daes without having any much needed rest....haiz...wrk study wrk study wrk study....gettin sick of it liao...haiz...den on wed...i attend e ntuc de dinner n dance at suntec...haha....overall..it's alrite bahx....hmmmm......it's been a long long tym since i last skip so few hrs of lesson since e start of e sem.....4 tis wk....i onli skip 2 hrs of lecture.....unbelievable....even i cant believe it at all....haha...2dae wrk was alrite bahx....saw her jus b4 i leave e place...anyway...i better not tink too much le...i've let her as well as a lot of pple dwn....n all i can say is sry.......haiz.....my life is full of regrets.......my mood still nt back yet...haiz....later going 2 meet shiou 4 cycling if e rain stops..otherwise...later den decide lorx......tired..... 5:36 PM

finalli gt tym 2 update le...jus reach hme from wrk not too long ago... haha....i've been wrking n studying 4 e past few daes without having any much needed rest....haiz...wrk study wrk study wrk study....gettin sick of it liao...haiz...den on wed...i attend e ntuc de dinner n dance at suntec...haha....overall..it's alrite bahx....hmmmm......it's been a long long tym since i last skip so few hrs of lesson since e start of e sem.....4 tis wk....i onli skip 2 hrs of lecture.....unbelievable....even i cant believe it at all....haha...2dae wrk was alrite bahx....saw her jus b4 i leave e place...anyway...i better not tink too much le...i've let her as well as a lot of pple dwn....n all i can say is sry.......haiz.....my life is full of regrets.......my mood still nt back yet...haiz....later going 2 meet shiou 4 cycling if e rain stops..otherwise...later den decide lorx......tired..... 5:36 PM

tired...head pain....feeling sick.....dat's how i'm feelin nw....die liao le...2dae wake up at ard 5.40am 2 get ready 2 go wrk at 6.30am-10.30am....so tired at wrk 2dae......lucky 2dae my supervisor is jennifer on shift in e morning den i can relax a bit.....haha....den wrk till ard 10.30am b4 i run back hme 2 eat my breakfast b4 getting ready 4 sch at 12pm...haha...den 2dae onli went 4 e maths lesson frm 12-1pm onli n didnt go e EG2133 de lecture cos my head is feeling damn pain since ytd....haiz...den in e bus saw shiou n we go 2 e blk978 dere 2 makan...haha...after dat we come back 2 my hse dere 2 c whether gt any one playin bb den in e end saw on guy playing dere n we join him lorx....had a great tym playing bball....haha...den we leave at ard 3.30pm......hmmmm.....later still nid go wrk 4 stock take....sianz.....my head is feeling pain nw liao le...cham liao la....haiz.......... 6:55 PM

haiz....2dae went wrk at 9am wif a heavy n pain heart..haiz.....reali no mood to wrk......after seeing wad u write in ur blog...e feelin i gt was....sadness..plenty of sadness inside mi.....y must U sae all those things in ur blog....have u ever spare a thought abt my feelings when u sae all those things.....must i reali quit so dat u wont see mi n feel unlucky or mi spoiling ur dae when u c mi??.....the main reason i'm staying dere is becos of e promise dat i've made 2 Tom on sat while at wrk as well as 2 myself.......i reali dun c much joy wrking dere liao.....anyway hope i didn't spoil ur dae todae as i request 2 leave dere early despite pple saying mi in case u see mi again.....anyway do get well soon....i'll b praying 4 U....i'm reaching my limits soon le...i'm reali veri tired liao....nth matters 2 mi anymore....living life dae by dae...if i'm destined 2 die....den jus b it..life is getting meaningless 4 mi le....when will i find my mood back...sianz....2molo morning still nid go wrk at 6.30am-10.30am b4 rushing back hme n to sch...haiz....... 10:03 PM

haiz....y must U sae until lyk dat,y must u sae seeing mi is unlucky n seeing mi also spoil ur dae???....y??...have u spared a thought 4 my feelings when U sae dat??...haiz....i'm hurt...i dun wan 2 b lyk tis every tym i go wrk.....when can i find my mood back???......n whu can reali understand mi rite nw.......haiz.......my mood sucks....going to wrk soon wif a heavy n pain heart...haiz....my life is pathetic.... 8:04 AM

SORRIE......I'M SORRY FOR LETTIN A LOT OF PPLE DWN BE IT IN E PAST OR PRESENT.....I'M REALI SRY 4 IT...I DUN REALI MEANT 2 MAKE U ANGRY OR WAD DE...I'M LEFT WIF NO CHOICE BUT TO DO IT N I REALI REALI HOPE U UNDERSTAND MI....I'M SRY 4 ALL E MISTAKES DAT I'VE MADE....TO THOSE PPLE WHOM I'VE LET DWN....I SEEK UR FORGIVENESS....sorry..... 11:05 PM

jus wake up n preparing 2 go wrk liao cos 2dae nid go wrk from 6.30-10.30am b4 rushing back hme 2 get ready 4 sch which starts at 12pm till ard 9.30pm....sianz.........haiz....y up till now U still wont believe mi.....i'm not a liar..since e dae we 1st met abt 2 n 1/2 mths ago..i've never lied 2 u at all....must e mistakes dat i make last tym condemn mi 4eva till e dae i die..i admit dat i sometyms dunno how 2 reali express myself well enuff always letting u tink dat i'm e person wif attitude etc......y cant we jus let e bygones be bygones n nt tink of it anymore>>??..can we b friends again??....it reali hurts mi everytym we c each other at wrk n we're lyk complete strangers.......i REALI REALI didnt lie 2 u at all...come tis sat...i'll prove u wrong....no matter wad it takes n at all cost...i'll do it...nth matters to mi anymore le.....haiz....ytd didn't go sch at all due 2 no mood den in e end...go wrk at ard 11.15am till ard 10pm lorx...damn tired sia......haiz..... 5:22 AM

haiz....my mood is getting from bad 2 worst as daes passes.....ytd while having my 1st de maths quiz....e maths lecturer was standing behind looking at mi doing my quiz...n he also tell mi dat he rmb mi as e one whu didn't always attend his lecture esp last thurs de lecture when he do e revision 4 e quiz 4 ytd n i didin't go 4 it n thus i deserve 2 fail....haiz.......i've let him dwn....from now on..i've also promise him dat i wont miss any of his lessons liao le....i've learn my mistake n i'll get wad i deserve....haiz....i'm still feeling hurt over wad happen sun nite while online...i'm being blamed by HER for doing something dat i've never even done b4 n y wont u believe all those things dat i've said...haiz...come tis sat..i'll prove 2 u dat i'm innocent n i'll get my revenge on dat person whu tried 2 sabotage mi at all cost.....to dat person whu tried 2 sabotage mi...i noe whu u r n i'll b letting out all my sadness n anger to u tis sat....VENGENCE IS MINE!!!......it's payback tym.... 9:13 AM

haiz.....2 more hrs 2 wrk liao....but i'm not looking 4ward 2 it......4 e whole of tis wk...i've been skipping lessons as n when i feel lyk it...though i'm still waiting 4 my 1st warning letter 4 e eg2089 as i missed abt 6hrs of lecture liao le.......i reali lack 2 mood 2 study rite nw....4 e whole of e last few wks except 2 or 3daes...i've been meeting bk 4 supper every nite after 10pm n we'll stay till ard after 1am b4 deciding 2 go hme or wad lorx....haha......haiz.....my mood is getting worst n worst as daes pass.....but i noe it'll take a long long tym 4 mi 2 regain my mood bad....haiz.... 11:57 AM

haiz.....my mood is still not back yet....i've been skipping lessons as n when i dun feel lyk attending it..just last wk alone...i skip a lot of lessons liao lorx...even tutorials i still skip though it's veri impt.....but dat doesn't matters 2 mi nw....haix.....mayb i can consider quitting my job nw le...i reali dun wish 2 go wrk everytym wif a heavy heart....it's reali veri torturing 4 mi..haiz..everytym seein things bet mi n her r still e same....i reali feel lyk crying...haiz....all i can sae nw is WO DE XING ZHEN DE SHOU SANG LE... 5:09 PM

haiz....jus wake up at ard 7.15am in e morning......on thurs....i skip e whole dae de lessons except 4 one E-learning lesson which i leave once i've completed e assignment...den shiou accompany mi while i wait 4 e bus hme.....den on dat dae....i meet shiou n boon keong 4 bball session...actualli i wan go e court at ard 978D dere plae de....but in e end...becos boon keong sae he too lazy 2 walk so far...den in e end..we play bball as my hse dere de court....den my 1st match was a one vs one match wif shiou in which i won 5-4...but e victory was veri hard 2 get it...he managed 2 block quite a no. of shots dat i made.....sianz.....but luckily i managed 2 achieve victory...anyway...he've shown a lot of improvement from e dae he started playing bball.....which is gd....haiz...recently i've been skipping lessons at will.....haiz...i reali cant find e mood 2 study....after daes of soul-searching..i noe dat i still lyk HER n dat i cant 4get HER...haiz....i'm not looking 4ward 2 wrk later as if i see her when she start wrk at ard 2pm n e same thing happen again...i dunno if i can take it....haiz....gonna gt ready 4 wrk le...2dae i requested 2 wrk frm 9am-5pm so dat i can attend wei xiong 21st birthdae party at his hse.....wei xiong bro..if u're reading tis...a Happy 21st birthdae 2 U!!....takecare.......signing off...when can i hve my mood back??...haiz... :'( 7:45 AM

hmmm.....jus wake up den decided 2 blog 1st b4 i do anything else...hmmm...ytd after lesson end at ard 2.30pm...i went dwn 2 tampines 2 repair my hp at e nokia care centre in century square.....den after everything ends at ard 4.40pm..i go dere de ntuc fairprice 2 meet tom...n at e same tym...c how's life over dere in his 1st dae at wrk over dere....haha.....hmmm...can sae he reali enjoyed his wrk over dere cos he's busy toking lorx..it's lyk as if he's veri free de lehz.....haha....den i wait till his work ends at 5.30pm b4 we go back 2 hougang point 2gether n haf our dinner over dere lorx...n after we reach hougang point at ard 7pm...we go 2 e ntuc 2 disturb some pple....haha.....den we stay dere till ard 8pm b4 we slowly walk hme..while at hougang point..i also planned my schedule from e 19-26 of tis mth as there're too many pple taking leave n i nid 2 go back wrk early in e morning b4 rushing 2 sch after dat..sianz......i noe i'll b tired out but i believe in myself...dat i can do it......haha...while walking hme..we saw one of e ntuc de aunty at e runnning track behind my hse n we tok 2 her 4 abt an hr b4 we go hme....so tired ytd.......den at ard 11pm...boon keong ask mi 2 meet him n i sae ok lorx...den i meet him n we gp have our supper 2gther lorx...after which we sit dwn n chat till ard 1.30am b4 we go hme.....i've finalli straightened out my thoughts le...BUT if tis sat at wrk n she still give me e same look when we both c each other....i noe dat i'll fall back dwn again..haiz...gonna prepare go sch liao le.....sianz.... 9:58 AM